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Episode 75: I've Been Broken for 25 Years

For a long time, I didn’t realize I was so afraid. I always thought of myself as a strong person, someone who could stand tall in the face of adversity. But recently, I’ve come to realize that I’ve kept my loved ones at arm’s length for years, all because I’m afraid of losing them. My strength, it turns out, came at the expense of my tenderness.

On today’s episode, I’m opening up about my recent trip to Costa Rica and all the pain, grief, and fear I uncovered there. I’m sharing how I’ve come to terms with my fear of intimacy and closeness, and I’m getting real about how I want to learn to love.

When I die, I don’t want to be known as someone who was strong, unwavering, or tough. I want to be known as a woman who loved deeply and without fear, someone who wasn’t afraid to love so hard it hurt. That’s the kind of person I’m going to become, and I invite you to do the same.

What’s in this episode:

  • My experience grieving my son when we thought he wouldn’t make it

  • Coming to terms with my struggles to be intimate with the ones I love

  • Why I put up barriers to keep myself from getting hurt again

  • How ignoring your pain can become a detriment to the healing process

  • Why strength and coldness seem to come hand-in-hand

  • My experience with past life regression and reconnecting with old grief

  • How I unlocked this pain and grief during my trip to Costa Rica

  • Why it’s okay not to be strong and to instead feel deeply and without fear

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2 commenti

Thank you - very touching & eye opening for sure. Makes me feel that yes, aside from letting my emotions through, i definitely need therapy for all the issues in my life that have built up inside of me. Thanks again for such wonderful content.

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Dwight Raatz
Dwight Raatz
19 apr 2022

E75: I'm not sure when I became broken, but I too have experienced many situations (funerals, weddings, birth of my children) and not felt much of anything. It's only when the force of the situation becomes too much that the emotions are forced out. I need to change this too. Thank you for sharing your journey.

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